1 Day left...

I am sitting up at 7am, sick to my stomach, had contractions last night, but nothing consistent. Woke up all night long because I was afraid I was sleeping through time to give the girls their medicine. Ugh! My last good sleep and I blew it!
Last night, I had to take the girls to the ER. They both have a rash that is spreading. They had low grade fevers and Clara was complaining of nausea. When I noticed the rash was now on her face, I took the right away. They got them in pretty quickly and said that they couldn't tell what the rash was exactly, but to give them antibiotics, Benadryl and steroids. So, we started the antibiotics and Benadryl last night. Not sure if I will be doing the steroids, I don't like them. They slept good anyway. No school for them today.

Now, I have all day to be sick thinking about getting sliced open tomorrow. I am so worried. I am naturally a worrier anyway, but with this, I'll be surprised if I don't throw up all day. Have I mentioned I suffer from panic attacks? LOL! Yay me!

I am glad that we will get to meet her tomorrow though. The girls are really excited, Johnnie's excited but nervous. Mom's excited. Not sure about Daddy or Jason...but I know they'll love her when they see her. I just want to get this part over with. The pain and healing part. Ugh! I still don't know how I am going to get up and down from my bed. It's so high. Mom says she has a step stool, but it may not be good enough. If you have ever had a C-Section, you know exactly what I mean. Anyway sudden movements, or reaching up, or stretching of the muscles in the section area is excruciating. I even had to sleep sitting upright for 3 weeks due to the muscle pain when I slept on my sides. That's quite literally a pain in the arse. No really, try sleeping on your butt for 3 weeks, it hurts.

Once I get through all of the healing part and the postpartum, which I know is coming, everything will be peachy and I will have a beautiful new baby girl. That part I can't wait for!! Just one more day!!!